Seems as if getting an entire 8 hours of sleep all in a row is about as real as prince charming … sounds good in theory, and maybe that first kiss is pretty good — but since the heroine is usually sleeping for some reason or another when the first kiss is given — how do you really tell? At this point I think I would volunteer to be Sleeping Beauty just for the chance to REALLY sleep.
Cian woke up just screaming at 2:30 AM — scared out of his little mind. And then proceeded to vomit all over the room. Somehow or other, by the grace of Goodness everything ended up outside of his bed…and since their room has been relatively clean as of late very few toys were involved in the 4 year old belly eruption. Of course then he had to get out of bed — and come into my room. Good thing my floor has been clean — and then the bathroom. — You get the idea. I just finished lighting the nearest candle to dissipate the aroma of sick. This scenario was played out twice before I got things relatively clean for 3AM, him back snuggly in his bed, Galen calmed down because his brother was getting sick all over the place, and some soft music playing in their room.
Lloyd, bless his teenage heart, has slept through all the fun. He has a very big day tomorrow. Senior day/night for the swim team. Means that during the home swim meet he will be recognized. Big day. One that I will be on deck taking meet photos.
I went back to bed once. The pillows are stacked just right on “the other side of the bed” that I was able to turn into them for a short while before the second round of sick hit. It has been over three months since I turned that way in bed, and found something there to snuggle against, and this was just some pillows, a bit of an accident in rustling things up getting up so quickly at the sound of 4 year old terror screams. Amazing how comforting pillows can be when they are wrapped in memories.
This is the first time I will have to keep one of the kids home from school and not have another person already here to be with said sick child. When Dean and I were both working, he and I would trade who would stay home from work. When Dean was home full time — he could usually handle one little sick person doing a lot of movie watching and sleeping while I was at work, so I did not think twice about where they were going to be. Now my mind is racing. The attendant job I have is not one I can really call off of, since she relies on the person being there to get her out of bed in the morning. Luckily, the local University is still on break, so Cian’s college care takers should be around.
I had made the joke several times, that no one in this house was allowed to get sick… that there just was not any time for it. That it was something I did not want to deal with — especially in the midst of the kids still not having any type of medical coverage. (although with calls I got this week that should be resolved very soon). I guess Cian’s immune system did not get my message.
Taking one day — one minute — one second as it comes. Really there is no other way to handle things. Keeping your mind on where you are, what you are doing … fully feeling and living and learning from each and every sound, and pressure, and breath, and noise, and 2:30AM 4 year old scream RIGHT NOW is what is going to keep you sane and balanced. Worrying, and wondering if the day (which starts in 90 minutes) will pan out all right just brings on more sickness … in ones self.
I learned to live in the moment while Dean was sick. Just take it as it came, not worry about what was going to happen the next day or in the next few months — or whatever. Just live and be happy with what is right in front of you. Seems, however, that I need to keep reminding myself of that now. Remember that things are what they are, and I am where I need to be. Put out there to Divine what it is that I need and trust that if I am truthful and sincere and doing my best that it will be there when I need it. So far, so good. (of course I have some pretty good friends that don’t hesitate in reminding me)
The one thing that is lacking? A full nights rest. Putting that out there now. I have been reminded more than once that in order to grow and stay centered one needed three things SLEEP, PRAYER and MEDITATION. It is hard to pray or meditate when sleep is lacking — and it is hard to function on any level and maintain wellness when sleep is lacking. Perhaps since Cian will obviously be staying home tomorrow a nice nap with him after I am finished working is in order.
And now at 4AM I am remembering that every experience is just a lesson, another piece of knowledge. It is not good or bad. It just is.
Sweet Dreams, May the morning light bring an abundant amount of colors and new possibilities in the never ending sea of experiences it will bring.
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Below is the First David Bowie new song released in 10 years. Part of the Lyrics:
Where are we now?
Where are we now?
The moment you know
You know, you know
Exactly Mr. David Bowie! 🙂