It is ridiculously impossible to sleep.

Well, actually I was not doing too badly until Galen woke up wet and needed help. Any other time something like that would happen Dean would usually wrap me up when I got back into bed. It is very cold place to be right now with no extra body heat.

I know there are many, many out there that would like to know what is going on in terms of arrangements …..

No calling hours will be observed. A memorial service will be held on October 14, 2012 at the Edinboro United Methodist Church, 113 High Street, Edinboro, at 4:00 p.m. with Rev. Natalie Christoph officiating. There will be a wake to follow at the Edinboro Vol. Fire Department, 125 Meadville St., Edinboro.
The Glunt Funeral Home, Edinboro, is in charge of funeral arrangements.
Memorials may be made to the family for a trust fund for his children. To send condolences please visit www.gluntfuneralhome.com.
Others want to know what we need …..
Other than sleep…
I have what was explained to me today as “molasses brain”. Unscrew the skull and pour in this sticky black gunk and then screw back on the skull. The gunk gets into everything creating an environment in which ones brain is just a pile of mush. In my case that is translating into not knowing ones own birthday when asked and forgetting that something like food may be nice for my kids until Lee brought us over some pizzas tonight. 

So … I guess a few pre-made kid friendly meals would be nice. Maybe someone can coordinate that? Now that  I put on the internet that my brain is so mushy that I did not make dinner replays of the end of “cloudy with a chance of Meatballs” come to mind. Which is awesome I guess, since it means we have a gizzilion people out there just ready to help.

I think I need someone or a little core group that would be willing to be wake coordinator. Dean’s mother would like to create some flower arrangements and I am working on finding photos for a slide show. I know we need food there and my brother is going to bring his DJ system for some music. If someone else can fill in the blanks there…. Dean wanted people to get together, enjoy a little bit, have a drink … that is the mission. 

Right now — I don’t know what else. I promise not to be shy about asking.

I saw my grandmother today when I went down for my grandfather’s service. She said “They are probably together playing cards.”  I love you Grandma 🙂

I know one more thing — When you see Michael and Lloyd … they are my rock. But they need a rock. I am so proud of them .. they are amazing young men. Michael went through all Dean’s video equipment tonight … says he is going to finish this band season for him. Lloyd went out yesterday morning and came back home with a coke and a Hershey bar for me. The both were pall bearers for grandpa today … They both have become even more protective of the younger brothers. They are amazing — please tell them so for me. Sometimes hearing it from mom just isnt always enough. 

Lloyd’s birthday is today. Michael and I will be watching him run a cross country invitational and then watch him perform with the band. Tomorrow we will celebrate with family. Where does the time go? You always think you have so much of it and then you blink and it is 18 years later than it was just a second ago.

Don’t lose any moments. Savor every one — even the painful ones. None of them will be here again.
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