Lots and Lots going on –
Not sure I feel overly inspirational, however … guess that is why the long absence from posting.
A friend reminded me today, however, that in just being myself (ourselves) is just enough.
The studio dream is coming true. We have two Yoga instructors and myself with QiQong and Reiki.
All of the class times are posted on our very own Facebook Site:
https://www.facebook.com/SuiteTwoStudio
Thinking about and preparing for this is a lot of brain power.
The kids are a lot of brain power. Lloyd is headed to swimming districts on two teams, the little ones are full of more energy than I can keep up with some days, and Michael is finishing finals this week before a Spring Break AND taking care of the district swim work outs for his team — which spells stress.
Other items in the news… I took myself shopping and found I have lost 3 dress sizes since October YIPPIE! I actually got to buy clothes the same size I would have in High School — which is incredible. Of course, with the march of time and 4 children that size does not quite look like it used to — but here is to more gym workouts and QiQong!
The kids and I signed up for some races later on in the Spring — extra incentive!
I guess the moral of my story right now is that I am trying my best to just take every day as it comes, stay present and in the moment. To BREATHE! To enjoy and to love life.
Harder some days than others. I still am not sure I have nailed down the single mom routine with these little buggers. They are a crazy delight, however. As I am typing Galen, 5 is back in the bathroom with Cian, 4 helping him in the tub. This pretty much amounts to extra water all over the place and a plethora of action heroes strewn from the bedroom to the tub … but, the action hero phase really does not last that long .. and neither does listening to pre-school laughter.
Tonight was a bit of a nostalgia night for me. I was feeling overwhelmed by a ton of stuff earlier. Some of Dean’s music came over the Pandora I was playing for the boys. …Found out that my feelings were more because of the need of a nap than anything else, since I fell asleep while the young ones were playing after school — YES, SLEEP IS IMPORTANT!
I ordered Wildwood’s Pizza for the kids and the cal-zone that Dean and I would often share on days when I was overwhelmed. And then I found this video … by chance actually. Dean and I would watch Big Bang Theory after the kids went to bed. Sometimes he would find a channel that would have several on in one evening. We would laugh, he would forget he was sick for a little bit. Jim Parsons is one of the main actors of the show. He helped make a video, that is quite funny, about how Cancer is everyone’s fight.
Not sure how to fight it myself — except to keep living, keep going and keep being the best me that I can despite the damn effects of the disease on this house. I think finding the video was a bit of Dean telling me it was alright to keep laughing .. even on strange nostalgia days like this one — and that even though cancer is incredibly serious and life changing for not only the ones infected but families as well, we need to keep laughing and having fun — or the journey just isn’t worth it.