I have nothing profound today. Woke up really wanting to let Dean know what has been going on this weekend. I figure if I keep writing letters here he will get it on his heaven computer. I am sure he asked to be issued one upon arrival. Cant imagine him even in Spirit without some type of electronic gizmo in his hand. And one psalm will not leave my head. I leave that for you below in the form of a You Tube video. Make today a great one. Only you can.
Hello Dear,
Yesterday was the homecoming parade. I went. I did what we always do and follow the band. I took lots and lots of pictures. It was very weird not to be tripping over each other or telling each other when to switch sides to get the rest of the band. Was very, very lonely to not see you there with your video camera in hand. I know it sounds strange to be lonely in the midst of so many people, but there it is.
There were lot of hugs from people, even during the parade route itself. Do you remember Michele? She hugged me for a very long time. There are so many people that are missing you or that cannot understand that you have left. I see it in their eyes, in their hugs and I hear it in their wavering voices as they try to talk to me. I need you to help me comfort them… I need you to help me figure out what to say, how to smile. I get stuck every time.
Lloyd was great in the parade today. He was really all smiles. I know you are proud of him .. he earned that snare his senior year… and he really, really plays it well. He had an end spot, so it was very easy to get pictures of him and catch his eye along the route. He grinned that crazy grin each and every time.
Galen and Cian said it was their best parade ever. They got to see Lloyd play and they got to watch Michael drive a “Monster Truck” that was part of the music fraternity float. The fraternity here is allowed one “foreign” student a year or something like that. So even though Michael is at another college they have brought him into the fold. He was a little annoyed that he got breathalyzed twice (at the beginning and at the end of the parade) but he really, really enjoyed driving. He even sang the national anthem with some other boys before the football game.
After the parade I took Galen to his first official birthday party — it was Darrah’s 6th. It was a bowling party. Galen thought that was really, really great. He did really fine there. Had a lot of fun and other than whacking at Darrah’s balloons, was very polite.
THEN … Lloyd got ready for the dance. It had not occurred to me that you always helped the boys with their ties for the dances. Lloyd came out with his and handed it to me and asked if I thought he did a good job. He had looked it up on the internet before I got home with Galen, since he could not remember what you had done last time. Resourceful little bugger. Of course then his mother was in tears … he did a wonderful job.
I got pictures of him and KK. I went to the house where about 30 of them were having pictures and ordering pizza. Cian had a nap at mom’s during the party that Galen went — but the no nap for Galen started to take its toll. I ended up handing over the camera and taking the little ones home. I think I was done for the day anyway. That was the third very crowded place in one day. I was as tired as Galen. I could feel myself drained. I think the fact that your children are crazy people when they don’t nap actually saved me from having to stay any longer. I know Lloyd understood.
I wonder how you are doing…. I wish there were a pen pal system so I could at least get letters. Would think by now you would have figured out how to wire the place with wi-fi and at least send me an email. I think of a million things to ask you every day..
-What is the password for this computer
-Where are all the thumb drives
-Are you having fun? Whats it like
-Why now? ………
I am teaching a Reiki I class today after church. You know, the one with the ladies from the first lecture I did? The one I thought you may be going to with me. Of course I am sure you know all about whatever it is you want to know about now. I just always seem to do things better when you were in the background reminding me of things and offering suggestions. We work well together that way. It is hard to do things without the “technical backup lackey”
I need to get going now. I have to take a class this morning before church. It will go towards the ordination process. I know you were proud I started that. I intend to finish. You were and still are my greatest cheerleader. I wonder if I told you that enough when you were here.
Love, Jenn